September 25, 2002 

Who'd a thunk that a mere 10 months after falling down the rabbit hole and landing here in Maddog's fabulous domain I would be writing fanfic and now a column for the Sandynista page on Weavered.com? Certainly not me. Yet, here I am...

Let me start by explaining who we are... Sometime around the middle of last season, a small group of us started to come together because we were seduced by the dark charms of Dr. Weaver’s new love interest -- Lt. Sandy Lopez, played by Lisa Vidal of “The Division”. Needless to say, we nearly caused a riot every time one of us posted our praises of the firefighter...so we rallied around our standard bearer, the lovely and incomparable Erised, and the Sandynista forum was born.

In the months since the airing of "Lockdown".... we’ve been busy dreaming, writing, discussing, and speculating about our favorite ER doc and her Intimate Firefighter Friend (IFF) and what TPTB might have in store for them (and us) in the upcoming season. Which brings me to the point of this new feature for the Sandynista page at Weavered.com -- to share with you some of our ideas and comments on Dr. Weaver and Lt. Sandy Lopez.

I would like to start with this well thought out and articulate post by Thessaly, which I think all of the Sandynistas agree with... I sure couldn't have said it any better.

-Mangababe (Editor)

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The Beautification of Kerry Weaver - by Thessaly

Some people question Sandy’s public outing of Kerry’s Lesbianism, saying that it was a spiteful thing to do, that she did it to be hurtful, etc. I disagree, because at that point in the relationship Sandy was very far-gone on Kerry and just as vulnerable to the kind of hurt Kerry unleashed by denying her, and later blowing up at her. Sandy is a woman who knows herself, her heart and her mind together; she was already sure she was in love.

Kerry, as we all know, has been sublimating most of her emotional side for a long time. She hadn’t learned to trust her own feelings and everything she felt for Sandy was overshadowed by the fear of discovery, the fear of being “outed”.

That fear was destructive, painful, a demon unto itself. Kerry’s anguish was dangerous. It was hurting her and would have continued to do so.

By outing her, however impulsively, Sandy slayed that demon for Kerry. And she knew, she knew, that it might put Kerry out of her reach, at least for a while, but possibly forever. So the consequences of that action were a lot more severe for Sandy. She loved Kerry enough to let her go until Kerry was able to understand that one can pay a serious price for repressing emotion and denying identity. Repressed passion kills. Figuratively, or literally.

Understanding Sandy's motivation and sacrifice, Kerry is now able to trust her where she wasn't able to trust Kim. She's free as a bird to explore and develop her feelings for Sandy. (Remember all the bird and butterfly imagery via Stan the Can in "Bygones"? It wasn't just filler, people!)

That’s part of what I believe TBTB were trying to say with the “Bygones” college stabbings subplot, or those “ham fisted Lesbian anvils of death”. That could have been handled with loads more subtlety, but whatever.

So, do Kerry and Sandy have chemistry? Yup. Sure do. I think that’s part of the explanation behind what I like to call the Kerry Weaver Beautification Project. She’s going through such a major transformation, in demeanor as well as appearance, and she owes most of it to the loving, stable relationship she’s working on with that sweet, sexy firefighter. Either that, or Sandy’s doing Kerry’s hair every morning. We’ll just have to wait and see!

 

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